Now that we have a firm diagnosis and a clear direction in which to go with our fertility treatment, we’ve been making adjustments to our lives so that we can save money for IVF. Knowing that we have about a year to save, (because of training and a looming deployment,) gives us a pretty clear view of what we need to be doing in the coming months to prepare financially for what is to come.

We have roughly 13 months to save/acquire about $11,000. That works out to roughly $850 a month. With our first round of budget cuts (cutting frivolous spending) we have been able to put away more than we thought possible for this month. While brainstorming ways to cut even more, we revisited the idea of purchasing a pressure cooker/canner. We’ve talked about purchasing one for a couple years now, but I always find a reason not to spend the money. I’m THAT person. I will always, let me rephrase that, ALWAYS  find reasons not to buy things that aren’t necessary. So here I am, years after the initial conversation and agreement to purchase the pressure canner, with no pressure canner. 

It’s not like I haven’t done a cost analysis. I understand the savings and health benefits involved with canning things myself. I’ve done the math, and when you consider that I’m going to be cooking for one for a while, a skill I really don’t have, canning things like soup makes sense. I’ve never made less than a giant vat of soup. Honestly, I am not sure what it would look like to make only a serving or two of soup. When you look at the pro/con list, the pros FAR outweigh the cons – but I still haven’t purchased the pressure canner.

Here is where the trouble lies right now: We understand that any round of IVF isn’t a guaranteed pregnancy so we’re preparing for more than one round. We are fundraising as well as putting away money ourselves. People are sharing our story on Facebook and donating to our treatment fund, and we are actively asking people to continue doing so. We have experienced generosity that we did not expect and it is humbling, but it causes me guilt every time a dollar is spent that could have been saved. What right do I have to spend $100 on a pressure canner when people are giving us money to create a baby?

Sure, the one-time $100 expenditure would quickly pay for itself in the first few months just in beans, soup, and veggies, but the guilt still nags at me. Talking to friends and family, they all say to buy it, but the guilt still stops me. I would say “I’ll sleep on it and see how I feel tomorrow,” but I’ve been saying that for well over 2 years. I guess I just need some clear sign that this is a worthwhile investment.